Holiday's Causing Stress

I would be broke as usual but right now I would be worse off than usual. I am not only broke I am in debt. While typically that would not bother me as I have paid off a great deal in recent years the fact that I am farther in debt with the holidays approaching would make it worse. I would be in the process of writing or rather rewriting past articles just to have something to do during my child's tantrums since I can not acknowledge them because with Autism that makes them worse.

I am updating my blogs as she has her tantrums because I have to focus to do the timed work. Allowing timed work to time out is not a good time, it means that I wasted my time while I could have been doing something that earns a little income instead of ending up with none. I have four blogs that should be pretty well updated provided the weekend continues on the path that it is taking. I am not very good at keeping up with this one but I intend to get better. My "Odds and Ends" appears to be my favorite since I feel free ramble.

I have a lot of articles to rewrite and originals to write. The holidays are here and those articles appear to earn well close to the season and an earning boost is something I can use right now. Well, I have a few hundred dollars that I need to earn to make it until the end of the month and I need to get a head start on next month so I'm going to be going now. I do so love being in debt around the holidays, just proves I do everything backward. Most people get in debt because of it but not me. I start it in debt with an empty savings account.

Figuring It Out

OK I'm figuring it out now, I think anyway. I got paid for my project even though it's not done yet. I still owe him five rewrites, no problem. I can do those five provided he gets them to me this year. I am waiting on another project or two to come through. I think that I will bid on some projects while I wait. It can't hurt I figured it out and I can do at least three at one time and my own things without being overwhelmed as long as I schedule my day correctly. I have to find out how to pay for the little device to make my Internet portable all over again so that I can work anywhere though. My battery last for approximately two hours, so I need a backup battery in order to switch them out when I am going to be gone for long periods of time.

Wish me luck I am off to bid on anything I think I can do.

Frantically Working

I would be frantically working on anything and everything in hopes of getting paid for something, anything before Friday. I would be so broke that I literally can not pay attention. There are always extra bills at the end of the year but this year they seem to be taking more of a toll than they usually do. I need to get gas to take the kid to therapy and replenish her supplements. That's going to be tricky, gas is over $3 a gallon. I have $5 and a quarter of a tank of gas. You tell me is this going to work for five days of therapy?? I think not.

I'll have a whole $17 on Friday minimum and while that's better than nothing I fear that it is far from enough. I really should write a book or something. I started to type up some things that I had written so that I can edit them and turn them into short stories but I'm afraid that some of them were too painful and I had to stop typing them up to prevent myself from crying. Well, this isn't doing anything but complaining so I'll be getting back to work. Yes, I know I have more blogs to update but that can be done tonight and during my breaks today. I have to work furiously to make things improve and that is just what I intend to do.

Broke as Broke Can Be

Well, all the bills except for a couple are paid. I have the money for two of them and will have the money for part of the other as soon as I get paid. I have no idea how in the world to get by until then. I have yet to finish my last project, I have five more rewrites to do on it that I do not have the material for. The client was sick in the middle and offered to release the funds before I finished I should of made it clear that was fine with me but I do believe I was distracted.

At the moment I would be going back and forth between updating my blogs and promoting my writing. I have some old articles that require updating so I'll be doing that in hopes of finding a new angle on them to write new material from when the kid goes to school.

The 6th my soon to be ex-husbands check from the day he worked his new job will hit the bank. Next Friday provided I don't forget to request it I should get a small payout from Text Broker, the new weekly pay day will work well for me provided I can pay attention long enough to make it each week. The cost of everything is going up and it helps with a day or two or travel expenses for therapy or getting the baby a snack for the days she doesn't have time to sit down and eat her lunch.

I'm already thinking about the kid's Christmas and birthdays. It's going to be a tight budget this year but then again it is every year. I need to replace my Rodeo and pay for the divorce. This is going to be fun, I still have no idea how to figure out all of this stuff. I just wish that I could afford to move right now but I can't so I'm stuck with my soon to be ex and wondering if we're going to be able to get a divorce in time for the holidays.

I have to take him back off my savings account as soon as they deposit his check so that he can not take money out of it. I need to save some so we can move and stuff. I'm tired of being broke and I have the nagging feeling that without him I won't be nearly as broke as I am. It's as if he's drug me down with him over the years and I just can't take it anymore. I don't need everything that I see but I do need to meet basic needs without someone whining that they can't do what ever they want when they should know we can't afford it.